Like most people I took the new year to set some new goals. One of them is becoming healthier and lighter. I jumped back on Weight Watchers and have been going at it for a solid month.
For the last ten years I have gained and lost the same 40 pounds. It makes me tired to think of the energy involved in gaining and shedding that much weight. Being on and off medications and my emotional connect to food have not helped.
I think I finally hit that place where I'm tired of feeling this way and I'm committed to doing something about it. Not because I have to for an event or trip but because I WANT to be healthy.
So here is the big Rhi-Storing announcement. I am going to shed 40 pounds by Memorial Day. Here is the best part: I've already lost 11!
We have a vacation planned to Disney World and I want to be able to look at our pictures and not feel terrible about who I see. I want to be able to walk all day without my body giving up on me. And I definitely want to be able to ride all the rides comfortably.
So I've started ordering Pea Pod grocery delivery to make better choices about what I'm buying. It also means I'm not tempted to throw stuff in the cart we don't need. I'm getting fresh lettuce and lean meats delivered weekly so I'm not throwing food out and we aren't eating out.
Even my kids have gotten bit by the be healthy bug requesting chicken fiesta salad for dinner tomorrow.
So 40 is my short term goal. My long term goal? 75 by September. Wish me dedication!
Do you have a New Years health goal? Leave in the comments so I can cheer you on!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Blues Setting In?
Its been rough around here. Mainly because our life is crazy due to the foster care system. I'm becoming increasing frustrated with the way the court system works and I find myself feeling like I'm not being heard. Like at all..EVER. I spent quite a bit of time in therapy trying to figure out how to get my voice heard and now I'm in a system where NO ONE has to listen.
I'm tired. I'm not sleeping well. I feel lonely. And even though I just want to crawl up in a ball I have to pull it together and be the Mom. I'm thinking about calling my therapist but she's the Volunteer of the Year at my kid's school. seriously she has a parking space and everything.I know that she would keep everything confidential but I'm just not sure how I feel about running into her outside the office. Then agian the thought of explaining everything to someone new seems worse.
I'm tired. I'm not sleeping well. I feel lonely. And even though I just want to crawl up in a ball I have to pull it together and be the Mom. I'm thinking about calling my therapist but she's the Volunteer of the Year at my kid's school. seriously she has a parking space and everything.I know that she would keep everything confidential but I'm just not sure how I feel about running into her outside the office. Then agian the thought of explaining everything to someone new seems worse.
Friday, January 6, 2012
New Year, New stomach issues - may be TMI
Another first of the year Emergency Room visit and trip to the gastro doc.
So about two weeks ago I spent 6 hours in the emergency room. Within 30 minutes they had given me something for severe abdominal pain but then I spent the next 5 hours pukeing my guts out. Nothing came back in blood work and it was felt no surgery was needed since I have monappendix or gall bladder.
Then new years eve rolled around and during my brother's Anniversary/wedding party I started having the pain, experiencing nausea and dizziness and generally feeling crappy. I made it to 9:30 am and then decided to go back to the ER. My Mom was able to take the kids and I drove myself which was interesting. After 4 hours, bloodwork, an xray, and a CT scan and 7 trips to the bathroom due to the diarrhea I was experiencing (which why would you put me down the hall and around the corner from the bathroom I'm not sure. At least the nurse got smart and unhooked me from the machines) the doctor told me I was completely normal with no findings whatsoever. Umm sorry doc but grabbing pain every 5-10 minutes is not normal. And the shot you put in my arm that burnt like the fire I started in the microwave last week did squat to help. His answer- could be a virus. Here is some morphine for the pain. Hopefully it won't make you puke.
Ok I'm being snarky. He was very nice. But it was still frustrating. He even called two days later to check on me. And he did send me home with a script of pain med which I will squirrel away for bad head pain days.
So I called the GI doc who I now see more regularly than my OBGYN. She told me it was bowel spasms which can cause pain, nausea, diarrhea and come and go. Probiotics, fiber supplement, and the pill form of the fire shot I got at the hospital except alternate days as this will make you constipated.
6 days later my stomach is still jacked up but we'll get there. Cause of all this? Stress. Interestingly this pain seems to hav replaced the anxiety I've been feeling for the last month. Should make this year VERY interesting.
So about two weeks ago I spent 6 hours in the emergency room. Within 30 minutes they had given me something for severe abdominal pain but then I spent the next 5 hours pukeing my guts out. Nothing came back in blood work and it was felt no surgery was needed since I have monappendix or gall bladder.
Then new years eve rolled around and during my brother's Anniversary/wedding party I started having the pain, experiencing nausea and dizziness and generally feeling crappy. I made it to 9:30 am and then decided to go back to the ER. My Mom was able to take the kids and I drove myself which was interesting. After 4 hours, bloodwork, an xray, and a CT scan and 7 trips to the bathroom due to the diarrhea I was experiencing (which why would you put me down the hall and around the corner from the bathroom I'm not sure. At least the nurse got smart and unhooked me from the machines) the doctor told me I was completely normal with no findings whatsoever. Umm sorry doc but grabbing pain every 5-10 minutes is not normal. And the shot you put in my arm that burnt like the fire I started in the microwave last week did squat to help. His answer- could be a virus. Here is some morphine for the pain. Hopefully it won't make you puke.
Ok I'm being snarky. He was very nice. But it was still frustrating. He even called two days later to check on me. And he did send me home with a script of pain med which I will squirrel away for bad head pain days.
So I called the GI doc who I now see more regularly than my OBGYN. She told me it was bowel spasms which can cause pain, nausea, diarrhea and come and go. Probiotics, fiber supplement, and the pill form of the fire shot I got at the hospital except alternate days as this will make you constipated.
6 days later my stomach is still jacked up but we'll get there. Cause of all this? Stress. Interestingly this pain seems to hav replaced the anxiety I've been feeling for the last month. Should make this year VERY interesting.
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